Why?

So I have a lot to say tonight..and I feel like I should let it ALLLL out.

Why is it, that people find it so hard to communicate things PROPERLY? If you tell me A is A, wouldn't I expect A to be A all the time, why would you expect me to think A was G? Does that even make sense? If you say this is this, let this stay this. I HATE it! Seriously. I do.

And then the situation is treated as though I'm the ass that can't understand the English language? That's just uncalled for. Anyway, I digress.

As of late, I've been confronted by a few people who are or have been going through some rough times in their lives, of which I'm most appreciative. These revelations if you will, have brought me back to a previous post, the one about living for self. We give so much of ourselves to others, and they give us absolutely nothing in return. Please understand that I am not this bitter, I am not a selfish person, but people are bringing out the worse in me. I love giving, it's fun, but it's the being taken advantage of that I loathe. When did it become ok for people to simply not give a damn about you, but expect that you dedicate every iota of your being to them? I simply can't accept that.

Living for self simply means that we protect ourselves, you know, ensure that all is well with ME. Afterall, if you don't who will? It has nothing to do with being selfish, or "bitchy" as one put it, it has everything though, to do with respecting, loving, and caring for you. My mother always says, "respect begins at home and ends abroad" and the fact is, behavior breeds behavior. If you respect yourself, others will respect you as well, if you love yourself, others will learn to love you as well, and if they don't, so be it, the last time I checked, that does not stop the earth from going around the sun.

In this life, in this day, it is important to love yourself, this will enable you to love others, and most importantly, never forget to love God, for He is love.

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Snow Day!

So today I experienced my first Snow Day, or something like that at least. I woke up this morning a bit distraught, my cold isn't gone yet, and I had like 400 tests today...but the God I serve is awesome! Oh boy is He AWESOME!

Got up, did the showerin thing..came back to my room, worried, panicked, because the first of the 400 tests is at 8:30, and at that point it was around 7:15 or so. Checked my e-mail, and there it was...the message that GOD himself had to send. School will be closed until 12:00 today! I said Bless the Lord oh my soul, and all that is within me indeed!! I was never so happy.

It was amazing though, there was ice everywhere...the reason it happened was because it snowed like mad, then it rained like mad, the rain melted the snow, then the excrutiatingly low temperatures froze the rain, and turned it into ice, which covered all the land, and forced the school to close. As I was told, this is the first time in A LONG LONG LONG time, that Acadia has cancelled even one class, so of course I feel special, like I had something to do with this. I mean think about it, why else would they decide to do this on the semester I'm here? Lol..Duh!

But it was cool for what it was worth, no one was hurt, although a few people did fall down, that was funny...haha, but all's well that ends well.

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Life.

I think Forest Gump said it best: "life is like a box of chocolates, ya never know which one you're gonna get" (if that quote is incorrect, forgive me).

Life has its way of doing what it wants to, whenever it wants to and expecting us to deal with it. Sometimes we pretend as though things don't affect us, or that they don't mean as much, when deep inside we know they do.

I'm a firm believer in the fact that everything happens for a reason, nothing happens "just because".

I've been sent to Canada. That is fact. No one knows why I was chosen, no one knows how I was chosen, well at least I don't know, and at this point, I could honestly careless, I'm here. At first thought one would think well the only advantage of this experience would be the first hand experience of obtaining an education in a University setting, well, I would agree. That seems obvious. But remember, life has it's way of doing what it wants to, when it wants to.

My time spent in Canada will yield many new things about myself I'm sure, bring to light a few minor imperfections, and polish up on areas that need polishing up, no matter how I look at it, I'll return a different person.

Before I left home, I was in a different place emotionally, I didn't know where I wanted to be, who I wanted to be, or anything, I wasn't completely lost, but my vision was a bit cloudy. That is not to say that I've been "found" if you will, but I'm finding myself as time elapses. There's a saying "absence makes the heart grow fonder". As it stands, I'm absent from a lot of things, from my job, from friends, family, and others that I've grown to love, I miss them all, but each in a different way, and some not so much. Absence can make the heart grow something, but it's not necessarily always going to be fonder.

Maturity happens all the time, growth happens everyday, I'm maturing, and I'm growing. Sometimes in life we outgrow certain people, and certain aspects of our lives, this doesn't necessarily mean that we don't love or care for these things, but we've just simply outgrown them, they don't meet the same needs they once did, and so we move on.

I'm happy to say that I'm moving on, there are things in life that I've just outgrown, as simple as that. Think no differently of me though, as you may sense a change in demeanor or disposition, be assured that all is well, I'm just shedding skin, turning over a new leaf, Jennifer Holliday says in a song "Look at me, look-at-me; I am changing, trying every way I can". Take a good look, fore I am changing.

Change doesn't come easy, but when we change for the better, life becomes just that.

I am Changing.


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Someone steal all my friggin juice!

So I know I'm supposed to keep this g- rated and stuff right, and speak all proper and wat not...but now is not the time. Someone tief all my gad damn juice out da frigde!

It would've been last week Friday night, I came home from a lil gatherin...had a nice time with the lovey Bahamian folk up here right...HUNGRY! STARVIN! Time nah I say lemme go take off ma clothes, get comfortable ya know...wash ma face and all dat...READY to dig into some nice cold Five Alive and some chips and what not...come out my room, headin to the kitchen...

On my way...I hear somethin ya know...sound like someone breakin ten...man I spin round da corner..don't know what I did that for...lol...ain like I was ga do ntn anyway...but I digress...gone in the kitchen, turn on the light, open the fridge door..I most drop...ALL A MY STINKIN JUICE WHAT I JUST JUST BUY FROM WALMART..GONE! DEM SUCKAS TIEF ERRYTING! Even da spoil cheese wat been dere from King Hammer was a friggin hatchet!...I cudn't believe it...I just buy dem tings from da shop man...boy I was Purple where I was so mad...

I sure y'all know how it is feel when ya have ya mind set on somethin, time nah ya mout waterin, belly growlin, you goin crazy almost, where you tinkin bout dis ting so much...den when ya get dere it ain dere...Lord knows I most burn down this place...da ppl say I must calm down, das only juice...only juice? ONLY JUICE? Dey ain know how dat juice get dere...dey ain give me one red cent fa my juice...talkin mess bout it's only juice...lol..I only cud laugh nah cus it done happen...but y'all cud imagine how pissed off I was...

So I finally catch myself...I say I was ga go lay down catch ma breath...end up fallin sleep..but who please when I wake up da next mornin, sometin tell me go check da fridge...open da door da ppl bring back dat ole dry up bottle a fanta fruit punch but ain bring back none a my damn juice..and dey carry soo much tings..I had 5 bottle a water, Dasani, da good kind, one big bottle a Mott's Juice..da 100% one..3 cans of five alive, and one two litre bottle a coke soda...da whole fridge dey carry...

But I say anyway..das alright, it ga be ok...ppl in da world ain even gat water to drink...I ga be ok...I just want da sucka who tief my juice to know dey betta lock up dey room, cus if I find out...I tiefin erryting back...even ya socks...lol...don't mind me here..I only ventin...

Anyway y'all, it's been real...

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Living for Me.

School has officially begun. It's interesting, it's not much different than home except for the fact that I don't really know anyone...in my classes that is. I'm taking four again this semester...each one a bit more funnily challenged than the last...(if you get that, you get a gold sticker...if you're still scratching your head, don't worry, we can't all get gold stickers.) Acadian life is interesting - hope that's not an overstatement...We've hung out in the AXE, a local bar/lounge on campus, we've been to New Minas, we've been to parties in the suite we've taken HUNDREDS of photos...good times indeed.

In other news, we're living for self now...it seems like the best thing to do. I advise everyone to do it. It's going really well for me, so far at least. Let's keep our fingers crossed and hope it stays that way. It's not to be confused with being selfish though, it's just living for self. I started early last week I think it was...I said what I had to say, and I slept better, I felt better, I even looked better...seriously...things changed. I got a brick off my shoulder, and I felt great!

When we live for self though, sometimes thing will not go the way we plan it, but that's ok, things have a way of working themselves out. They just always do.

My best friend (one of them) made a self choice recently, and I imagine that life will be better. My lovely exchange companion and friend...lol- too made a self choice, and she's all oooey gooey now, but she's happier nonetheless. I'm happy for them. They lived for self, and they're happy. That's what it's all about. Doing things that make us happy.

I'm happier now...that I've said what I had to at least. It's gonna be interesting to say where that goes, but life happens, and the good thing about that is that it goes on. It does not stop, even when it does, it doesn't.

So "no worries" guys, I'm happy, and all is well.

It's FREEZING today...like no other day...the weather is supposed to get increasingly nasty until Sunday...we'll see how it goes.

I need it. Can anyone help me? We'll save the details of that one for a later date...

It's bed time now, and a bunch of drunk kids are making noise outside my door....but we're relaxing this year, so I'll just let them have their fun...


Live for self people. It's the best decision you can possibly make.

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Landfall...finally!

So, here I am at Acadia Univeristy in Wolfville, Nova Scotia, Canada. Did you hear me? Perhaps I should say it again..no? Ok, fine, I won't...I honestly thought I would not make it here. Time had sped by so quickly, then all of a sudden, on the day of, it seemed as though it wanted to stand still. There were SOOOO many obstacles, soooo many things I had to do, soooo many reasons to go from zero to hero....but alas I relaxed, remained patient, and thanked the one that sustains me.



For record purposes however, let's just give an account of said obstacles. It seemed that all would be smooth sailing if I went by my experience at the airport in Nassau...that went really smoothly, so I was excited. So we get on the plane, another 4 seater, but I say it's a plane nonetheless, after all they could've sent us by boat right? Right, the flight was better than others I'd experienced in prior travelling experiences, so that was good. Upon arrival to Canada however, we were held up for some 45 minutes to an hour maybe, because the plane that was docked before us, would not or could not rather move. So we had to sit there until it decided it was time to move on. First obstacle hurdeled. Next, we're in the airport, going through Canada's Customs, the lady stamps our passports, smiles, makes a crack about how we're going to LOVE the weather seeing as we're from the Bahamas and all, then we get to the Immigration part of it, and the young man at the counter says we can go no futher...that's right, you can't go any further. I'm like pardon me sir? Why whatever do you mean? It was hilarious at that point, because I found it so funny. He says that we had to produce an acceptance letter from our respective institutions otherwise we'd be sent back to the Bahamas. That part there was more than I could bare, I almost croaked laughing. Anyway, I digress...that obstacle after about two hours, was hurdeled as well. Next hurdle to jump, was coming up shortly, as we arrive outside, excited to head to wonderful Acadia University, we're expecting a car service, or someone with a sign reading Ahmad or Amina...this would not be the case. I went outside to see if perhaps the young man or woman sought refuge from the cold and went into his or her car, this too was not the case. We'd taken so long to get sorted out at Immigration, that the people leave us. So we're stuck at this point. We inquire about a cab, but oh no, that can't work, that costs an arm, a leg, and two of my most valuable possessions, but alas, again, I digress. What about the bus? Oh, yea, let's try the bus! Only problem is, the bus may not take us directly to the school, plus you'd have to take like three, 25 smackaroos a piece..are you laughing yet? Because I'm rolling over dying with laughter. Anyway, that was taken care of after a while as well. So now we have a ride, we're all in the car, and we're on our way to school...YAY! Right?...keep reading...

We arrive at the school, it's beauteous..the campus is just gorgeous, all covered in snow, the people are so friendly, everyone's excited to see us...this lifts our spirits, we're excited as well, a bit cold, but that's ok. So we head to the office to pick up our student Id's room keys, etc...Mina love goes first, yay! "Come around here and take your photo ma'am...Sir if you wait right here, I'll be right with you" says the lovely lady behind the counter. "Ok come along sir, it's your turn. What's your name?" "Amad R. Thompson" I reply. "Hmm. That's weird, you're showing up as not registered." "I'm sorry ma'am, that's almost impossible, what does that mean?" Well Mr. Thompson, that means you won't be able to be issued a room key, or have access to the meal hall" "Are you saying then ma'am that I'm homeless and will go to bed hungry?" You should have someone call the paramedics, because I know you're laughing almost to the point of unconsciousness at this point. No worries though, because Jesus loves me, and he smiled on me. The nice young man at the counter offered me a temporary id and meal card voucher, so all was well.

Despite all of those challenges, I made it! I made it! I made it!...What a mighty God we serve right!? Awesome to say the least. I'm here, I'm in my room, I've been to classes, I've been to the local mall, to a bar, to a WALMART...wow...I've done sooo much. It's all sooo much! Even though it seemed as though this moment would never arrive, it has, and I'm soo thankful.

Someone once said to me, each time you open your mouth, speak life, so I'm speaking life, what is done is done, and what will be will be, so I'm going to let bygons be bygons, and live life one day at a time.

I'm here you guys, let's see how this story unfolds!

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It's Time

I can't believe this hour is finally upon me. It seemed like everything has happened so quickly. Everyone is saying that 2009 is the year for them, the year for change, what makes this year so different from the others? Why weren't those years years of change? I can't answer those questions for anyone else, but I can answer them for me, the reason they weren't years of or for change was becuase I didn't allow a change to take place. We as human beings are our own worst enemy. We create obstacles for ourselves, and then blame others when we can't overcome them. In order to accept change, we must first create change, ensure that things are happening in our lives that encourage and embrace a change. We need to become action people, rather than people who sit around and wait for things to happen.

I've decided that this year, I will change things, I will ask God's help to help me to change things, whatever is not working for me, I will either get rid of it, or embrace an avenue in which change can occur. If you're not for me, then you're against me. It's as simple as that. Nothing more, nothing less.

This weekend was special. I truly enjoyed it. I saw you again, and this time was even more special than the last. You said to me, that I mean more to you that I can even imagine, well I want you to know, that you mean more to me that I can ever imagine as well. I find myself doing things for you, things that I don't do for others, and I smile, because I'm happy when I do them. You're someone I've grown to appreciate, and will grow to love, I'm sure, because you're that special. This is indeed a new year, the year of change and progress. I wish for you this new year, happiness, and sincere joy. Blessings and richness of the soul, I wish that God will smile on you everday, granting your every wish and desire, once it's pleasing to Him. I pray that you understand how much you mean to me, and how much I value you and your friendship. I love the way you make me feel, and the change you evoke in me, it's making me a better person as the days progress. Perhaps it's time. Who know?

Tomorrow is the day, the day when new things happen, I embrace a new set of people, a new set of experiences, a new way of doing things, I embrace change. I accept the change, and ask God's guidance and wisdom so I may do my best in all that I embrace.

It's time...

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